“My heart is beginning to melt”
I heard this in my head while listening to the local symphony
playing a concert devoted to the Christmas season.
I imagined snow falling on a freezing December night, only to melt in the morning
but my thoughts also acted to help me
melt the ice built up around my soul.
Sitting in that too warm seat of the theater
I saw you, made love to you, admired your smile – all within the scaffold of sound.
The transition from muted strings to classical jazz
acted as a chromatic aberration, distorting the images of loss
with chords arranged in architectonic ways.
The percussionist sweeping the snare
the triangle PING a sharp blue crescent in the night
the strings buzzing like moths around a backdoor porch light
stars pinpoint brass reflections on the keys of the sax
here in the melodies, hear in the melodies
the syncopation of our heartbeats
the slithery snaking bass line bump of us in the middle of the movement
Three Black Kings, but in the wings now just one white man and one brown woman
who knew that the price of admission
for our acts of coition
would have to be paid
before or after the show.